happy birthday to our dearest minatozaki sana!
thank you for being you and showing us hidden sides that we’ve grown to love and adore. we hope you have the best day filled with laughter and love! we love you ♡
I feel like I need to develop a British accent or something, to become thespian. And now it’s nice because people know I’m a fucking goofball.
— Happy 22nd Birthday, Timothée Chalamet! (December 27th, 1995)
jonghyun: is there anyone, from our blue night family, that is crying alone?
not crying of pity, but asking, “why am i living like this?” is there anyone that is feeling uselessly sentimental and guilty?
don’t be like that. i hope you think those bitter days of crying alone are the most beautiful days of your life. you’ll realize with time that your life is actually, pretty alright. i promise you. i’ll write you a guarantee!
the most beautiful thing in the world is right now, this moment, you. don’t ever forget.
today’s closing song is boohwal’s “friend, do you know? (친구야, 너는 아니?). until now, it has been blue night, this is jonghyun.
한숨 (breathe) - lee hi
composed by: kim jonghyun + wefreaky
lyrics by: kim jonghyun
arranged by: philtre (planet shiver)
translation by: @ikon0t7
take a deep breath;
so that either side of your heart becomes numb.
exhale one more time.
until you feel the slightest of pain;
it’s alright if you feel so full of air;
that you feel,
nothing’s left inside you anymore.
no one’s blaming you.
it’s alright ot make mistakes sometimes.
it happens to the best of us.
the words, “it’s okay” -
they may be nothing but words,
but isn’t there a day that i can,
do something about somebody’s sigh?
that deep breath of sorrow.
i can’t understand your innermost thoughts;
but that’s okay. i’ll take you in my embrace.
i’ll take you in my embrace.
to others, your sigh may seem
like one of tiredness, but i know
that you spent an entire day
so different that the smallest breathe is hard to breathe.
don’t think of that any longer; take a deep breath.
but, isn’t there a way that i can
do something about somebody’s sigh?
that deep breath of sorrow;
i can’t understand your innermost thoughts.
but that’s okay. i’ll take you into my embrace.
you’ve done so well.
some jonghyun moments i never want to forget
- standing up for lgbt students and minorities at large by amplifying their voices, but doing so respectfully (dec 2013)
- reflecting on his appreciation for hero movies… ‘i have to protect my world’ (mar 2013)
- receiving boxes of listerine after a joke comparing his deja-boo suit colors to listerine flavors went viral, during base promotions (feb 2015)
- comforting a fan who was self-conscious about her name with a handwritten note at a shinee fansign (may 2015)
- going to comfort a crying key during shinee’s concert at tokyo dome, but ending up crying himself (early 2015)
- speaking playfully with a male listener on blue night radio (may 2015)
- mentioning his gratitude for fans and listeners in creating a safe space with blue night radio (july 2015)
- discussing his conversation with taemin about “gender roles, prejudices and negative views about artists, etc.” when writing pretty boy for taemin ft. kai on blue night radio (aug 2015)
- personally supporting radio guest baek young ok on blue night radio in her efforts to bring sanitary pads to low-income girls (mar 2017)
there are so many more moments to include but i wanted to hold onto these for sure. jonghyun, you were a celebrity like no other. i cant imagine a world without you. i wish you’d gotten to known how many hearts and minds you touched with your voice, your songwriting, and just by being yourself.
To all those affected by the news of Jonghyun’s passing, please take the time to grieve. Talk to people, cry if you need to, work to process all your emotions and just grieve. Don’t bottle up your feelings, let the sorrow out of your heart in whatever way you can so that it may become lighter again.
Be patient and kind and respectful. Treat others well, no matter how they react to this. Honour Kim Jonghyun’s memory, his accomplishments and his life.
in a genre like kpop where everything that is shown to the public is carefully planned and idols are always happy and smiling in public, this is just a reminder to us that they are humans living in a human world too. their lives may look perfect but we really don’t know what they feel inside. rest in peace jonghyun
your idols can save your life but you cant save theirs
this is one of the saddest things i’ve read
I want to thank Jonghyun. And, to apologize to him.
Thank you Jonghyun for everything you’ve done in your life.
Thank you for brightening so many of our own sad days when yours were still dark.
Thank you for sharing your creative, artistic vision with all of us.
Thank you for your words of suppprt to those students advocating for LGBT rights, those years ago.
Thank you for the songs you wrote for other artists in the industry.
Thank you for your radio show, Blue Night.
Thank you for supporting every member of SHINee. You all debuted so young and you helped each other stay strong and succeed.
Thank you for highlighting mental illness in various settings and conversations. We need more advocates in South Korea and your voice helped.
Thank you for supporting your family, your sister.
Thank you for sharing part of your life with us.
Thank you for making SHINee shine.
Thank you for making every day shine.
Now I want to apologize.
I am sorry we could not help you out of your own darkness.
I am sorry we could not get you the help you needed.
I am sorry so many of us took your gifts for granted.
I am sorry so many of us took you for granted.
I am sorry that we could not save you.
I am sorry that what you were stigmatized for in life, will only ve rectified in death.
I am sorry you found hell in living, when your smile, your words, your art, your existence were all heaven.
I am sorry we could not do better.
I am sorry your country did not do better.
I am sorry that so many people failed you.
I am so sorry that it all ended in this way.
You truly Inspired us all.
Rest in Peace, Kim Jonghyun.
Thank you for being an inspiration to many people. May you rest in peace and be in a better place. We’ll surely miss you. Goodbye, Kim Jonghyun.